Month: September 2023

  • Wayfarer

    Wayfarer

    We came of age during a haiku war.
    We grew up in tombstone houses, cemetery cities.
    We watched screens become the glimmer in our eyes.
    Depression in single file. We fell out of line.

    You opened your soul to me like a flower,
    and I breathed you in.
    You showed me all the missing dirt,
    from all the places you’d tripped.
    You told me what made you too afraid to speak,
    so I held my breath with you.
    Thoughts that kept us up at night,
    you let me feel the violent thunderstorm in your heart,
    and it swallowed the sun.

    So when your heart stopped,
    time moved through me like an hourglass.
    The type of cold that turns breath to smoke
    tiptoed across my skin.
    And in that darkness,
    I became as dangerous and beautiful as an ocean.
    And I used the stars
    to guide me home.

  • It’s Easy to Get Lost Down Here

    It’s Easy to Get Lost Down Here

    It starts with a single thought; a simple notion. It starts with a breath and the first heartbeat of the morning. It starts and I find myself sinking down. I find myself dreaming. Let me out. What am I doing here? Skin so cold; touched by dawn’s first light. Grasp for a feeling, but my hands are empty.

    It’s easy to get lost down here. I look around for hope, but find a mirror. A familiarity; stay in the shadows, girl, it’s where you belong. A painful reminder sings a funeral song and I don’t cry. I can’t cry. My tears have run out. The past is gone but I’m here and I’m now. There’s a lot down here to worry about. If I stare into the void, will I ever find the light? If I let it inside, will I survive tonight?

    I get so very tired. I follow my nightmares; forget how to smile. Where am I? I open my mouth to scream but can’t hear a sound. No, I must be quiet now. Your words came to me in a whisper; they crawled inside my dreams. They said I can’t keep living here, inside our memories.

  • The Day You Left

    The Day You Left

    I hate the way you look
    your skin freezing
    in the air conditioning
    You didn’t move when I shook you
    and I started screaming
    What happened to you
    my love
    What has happened to us?

    You face is much too still
    you’re not breathing
    through the dried blood on your teeth
    You didn’t answer when I called 
    I don’t know what this means
    Where did you go to
    my love
    Why didn’t you take me?